In my previous blog I talked
about the new changes in my life. As Tupac Shakur stated, “The only thing that
stays the same is change.” I’ve started my new job and it is scary as heck
because there is no room for failure. It’s definitely intimidating and I know I
will have to put a lot of my effort into it. My best friend got married mid-May and two
weeks before her wedding I had decided that after her wedding I would not drink
for ~4 months or 17 weeks. I mainly decided this because I would like to lose
weight and alcohol has a lot of calories. I still will go out and do my normal
social outings but without alcohol. Also, I decided that I would eat healthier,
not 100% of the time, but mostly during the weekdays.
When I was in LA for the first
week of my new job, I was stuck in traffic listening to the radio, and Fantasia
was on air. She talked about for 6 months she refrained from drinking, smoking,
and people who bring her bad energy (haters, bad friendships, bad
relationships, etc…). She said she wanted to focus on herself and her new
upcoming album. She was not interested in dating; particularly in dating men
that she normally dated or she knew it would not go anywhere. She gave herself a
“detox” per se. She even symbolically married herself and bought herself a
ring! She said within that time she gained a lot of clarity about all aspects
of her life. And while she was going through this stage in her life she found
her husband, which was unexpected for her.
I heard this when I was at the
start of my 17-week journey. Hearing her talk resonated with my “detox” phase.
I’m still at the beginning of it but it feels good so far to know that I’m
concentrating on my health, letting go of bad relationships that make me feel
confused or bad about myself, and concentrating on my career. Also, I have been
talking to the Creator a lot more, some may call it praying, but I call it
relationship building. Through this I also hope to address my personal insecurities,
whether it is my physical (I feel fat, etc…), emotional, mental, or spiritual
ones. I hope to dig out my confusions, guilts, pains, and insecurities and face
them and let them go. At the end of the 17 weeks, I want to come out losing
some pounds and having more strength and clarity within my life. I am looking
forward to getting to know me in a better and more evolving way. Cheers!
